Thursday, August 1, 2013

January...Seriously?!

The last time I posted was January? Wow! For a while I tried to capture our moments in just a pen journal. My goal was to journal every night. My goal was that it would let my mind relax at night getting everything out on paper. Well, it did seem to work, but me sticking to anything like that is unheard of! It lasted a few weeks, now I'm not sure I even know where the notebook is. I just get so caught up in remembering every little detail and having an account for people to read it in the future. I just don't want to forget everything myself! Seriously though...does it matter? 

I'm reading Crazy Love by Francis Chan for our small group at church, and eye opening is all I can say, and I'm only 2 chapters in. The first chapter was about the vastness and most amazing God that I serve. One of the questions it asked during our group discussion was what would you say to God if you were standing at his throne? I would say nothing, probably melt into a heaping sob and fall on my face before him. I mean seriously...

 "...and there before me was a throne in heaven with someone sitting on it. And the one who sat there had the appearance of jasper and ruby A rainbow that shone like an emerald encircled the throne. Surrounding the throne were 24 other thrones, and seated on them were 24 elders. They were dressed in white and had crowns of gold on their head. From the throne came flashes of lightning, rumblings and peals of thunder. In front of the throne, seven lamps were blazing. These are the 7 spirits of God. Also in front of the throne there was what looked like a sea of glass, clear as crystal. In the center, around the throne, were 4 living creatures, and they were covered with eyes, in front and in back. The first living creature was like a lion, the second was like an ox, the third had the face like a man, and the fourth was like a flying eagle. Each of the four living creatures had six wings and was covered with eyes all around, even under it's wings. Day and night they never stop saying:
            " Holy, holy, holy is The Lord God Almighty, who was and is, and is to come." 
Whenever the living creatures give glory, honor and thanks to him who sits on the throne and who lives for ever and ever, the 24 elders fall down before him who sits on the throne and worship him who lives for ever and ever. They lay their crowns before the throne and say: "You are worthy our Lord and God, To receive glory and honor and power for you created all things, and by your will they were created and have their being."
                       Revelation 4:2b-11

I'm in awe and wonder at the amazing majesty of my maker! 

Back to the "does it matter?" Today I was reading chapter 2, and it was talking about how out lives are but a vapor. It gave the example of being an extra in a movie. How silly if you were in the movie for 2.5 seconds and all you could see was the back of your head, but you rented out the local theater and invited all your friends and family. No one would probably even care. The movie isn't about you. 

Throughout history God has used ordinary people for what....for their own glory? No, God has used people throughout the Bible to bring glory to His name. How can I live my life for myself? It's not about me, it's about God! 

 "So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, od it all for the glory of God." 1Corinthians  10:31

My life is just a 2.5 second clip in the wonderful creation of God. It's not about making sure that I note every little thing I do every day. Keeping strict tabs on 8 calendars of every thing my kids have accomplished. I'm going to start letting go of myself and living my life for my glory and start living to bring glory to Him. My cameo appearance in life will be worth something for my Savior! 

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