Hello, My Name is Courtney, and I'm a Planner

It's 2:30am and I'm still wide awake, and still managed enough energy to blog about how I have issues! :) I do not like the fact that I'm such a perfectionist, so much so that I am planning on making it a New Years resolution to not be such a perfectionist. You should see me, I'm a plethora of lists, schedules, calenders, reminders, alarms, sticky notes, spreadsheets, etc. You would think I would be THE most organized person, but more days then not I feel like my mind is scattered in a million directions.

 I know what my problem is. I find a solution that works for me, yet I continue to search for something better. When something better comes along I grasp on to that as well as holding on to what I had been using before. Hence my calendar on top of calendar on top of calendar issue! Seriously people, it is just getting out of hand!!

 I have my teachers manual which I mark with the date and any activities we are doing with each day. Then I have my desk calendar which has my tasks for the day of homeschooling, along with household things, and events. Then I have my computer calendar which houses all my events, and has reminders set up to send via my email. I also have a calendar in my kitchen that I jot random things down on when I can't get to my computer OR find the other small mini calendar in my purse. Gah! I'm exhausted and I'm not done yet. So, I have the small wallet sized one in my purse that I keep with me on the go for appointments or reminders of where I'm supposed to be going! I also have a dry erase board on my fridge that I keep a weekly to do list that everyone can see. Right now the boys are doing a December calendar in the kitchen where they move a snowflake to each date until we reach Christmas. We also are doing the candy advent calendars. We are doing the ABC's of Advent calendar. The boys and I do calendar time every morning for school. They have calendar notebooks, where they go further into learning about numbers, days, months, etc. We also have a magnetic calendar in the kitchen for the boys to use. I have a plain calendar hanging in my kitchen close to the dinner table that M and I can refer too during meals when we're chatting. Oh my! My ears are shooting steam and my head is spinning! Don't even get me started in the drama it takes to make sure that each calendar is in sync!

So in my effort to stay super organized, I have created such a disarray and am probably more disorganized now! In my mind I have a great reason for each calendar, as you can see from my defending of my 14 (yes, I just counted them all) calendars. Now that just makes me sad. I have gotten so overtaken with scheduling and planning things according to my desires, that I have taken control of the drivers seat, and put the JC in the backseat. I have always been a planner, and I can't say that that will ever change. I just need a shift in priorities...from me to Him!

 I am determined to make my life more streamlined with less clutter, more true organization, and a peace and direction that I know will only come from my amazing Father in Heaven. God is really teaching me to let go of my plans and let Him have His way in my life. In EVERY area of my life. I need to know that I can only hold loosely to my plans, but be ready at any moment for God to take over! I need to roll with the punches and let God do his thing. Everything that I have is God's, and I need to be reminded of that daily. I pray that God will help me to be a good steward of my time and the blessings he has given me. This is definitely a verse I'm plastering all over my......umm...calendars!! :) 

In their hearts humans plan their course,
but the Lord establishes their steps.

Proverbs 16:9